A mother's love is akin to God's love

I felt the need to urgently go to the urgent care facility. My head was spinning, I was feeling weak and helpless, the cords in my legs felt like they were slowly being cut, I was feeling unwell and scared.

In my state of panic, I reached out to my mom who made no haste and found herself at my doorstep without hesitation. She sat me down at the dining table, presented me with an assortment of delicious creole food that she purchased and she waited.

Her words "eat something Kel".My mom sat with me as she quietly observed yet lovingly assured me that my strength will return as I nourished my body. Her presence, her faith, her trust somehow mysteriously changed the eerie atmosphere of fear that was hovering over me to a remarkable peace.

I was not ill as I presumed but I was suffering a panic or anxiety attack. My thoughts amplified everything that I was feeling and made me believe that I was facing a threat.

This experience made me ponder. My thoughts began ruminating on the fact that motherly love has one origin and its from the Creator. What we call motherly instinct is also an attribute of God.

Questions started to forrest my mind like'What if we gave God permission to show us the same affection when we felt uncertain or scared?'. Another one was 'what if my tainted beliefs, such as seeing God as a schoolmaster, are creating a regimented image of God, therefore my experience is nothing short of being on edge'.

What if trying to hold myself without fail to equity and integrity created an image of perfectionism that was unattainable and therefore it became my god instead of allowing God to be my God.

I began to slowly face the truth that the whole culprit behind your experience on this earth is your belief system. The moment I let go of a vain pursuit of perfectionism, I began to feel less threatened by the universe.

I began to experience a mother's love through God. My mom opened my understanding of safety. Without her saying it, I experienced it. There is comfort and peace in safety. Now I reject any teaching that creates threats or makes me feel like I need to run and cover for shelter. The world has enough crazy in it, we need more systems of love and security.